Something to think about

"Finding the right person is very hard and very wrong. It is best to be the right person for the one you love and start from there.
You'll always end up disappointed when you set standards and define a "right person" for you...
and don't rush things coz somewhere somehow
God is preparing somebody for you."Don't be in a hurry to get into a relationshipbecause you can never find love
if you insist that you are already into it.
Try to find time to really understand
your real feelings, to know who youreally are, and what you really want in arelationship.You're right, there's no such thing as a perfect relationship, but there's a compatible partnership that goes along with it.
If you already knew that you're too big to fit
into a small sized t-shirt, don'tgive it a try.
You'll probably break it and pay for thedamages you have made. If you knew and felt thatthe relationship will not last,
don't go deeper into it.You'll just suffer the consequences and live likehell for the rest of your life.
It's really hard to say goodbye though,
but you can't make it any betterby just pretending you still have the same feelings.Try to let go and give yourself a chance to live life to the fullest. Give yourself a
chance to grow and give your heart
a much needed attention. Then you will find that you have made the
right Decision and you made it all by yourself.We call it love when we can't leave someone and see them crying as we try
to let go.We are wrong, it's just pity.
We call it love when we're too attached
and think that losing the one we love willsomehow make us weak and unable to face the storms of life. We misunderstood;
it's just that we're too much dependent to them.We call it love when we give our whole life to them,the wholeness of us and
imagined that if they leave, no one
would accept us and our past. We are mistaken,
its just insecurity. But no matter what the
definition is, the truth still remains thatlove isn't something you can buy or beg. It is real and existing. You can't touch it but you can feel it in your heart. You can't find it, but it will knock before you when you least expect it to come. Itcan make you the happiest soul in heaven, but don't forget that it can also
make you the most miserable person
in the whole galaxy."When you lose someone... and you think you were the one who loved most, betweenthe two of you... she lost more. For someday youcan love someone the way that you loved her...
But she will never be loved again the way that you did."

Finally, This is i

Since I was asked to report to Qwest last Aug 18, 2005, ive been trying to finish this blog. But my emotions is getting in the way, I end up feeling depress after completing 1 sentence.
This time, ill try to finish this.

To Papa batch 2....
Monica - I know you are happy right now and I know you know im happy for you...Always remember ill always be here and im still be the wind beneath your wings (you forgot to tell me if its your left wing or right wing...hehhee).......

Jameson - thank you for everything (for tagging with me to 711, to buy food at mcdo and for walking me to the bus stop) and for allowing me to burst your bubble...hehehehe....

Romina - bading...ill miss you...thanks you for the chickahan and tawanan.......

Lilith - thanks girl for being a good friend and if ever you need someone to talk to ... you know how to reach me ...

To Che, jell, liezel and karen - thank you for everything...i know your all not connected with Sykes anymore and i hope you can read my blog...

To my MSN Direct family...Mars, Che, Peggy, AJ and to our adopted Joyce.... thanks for the memories ...hope we can go out of town again...
To my OPS Family

Joanne - super thank you for everything...always remember our motto...i hope we can still be friends even if it would be difficult to hang out now that im in kpointe and your at RS...Im praying that you can join me here...and it would really really make me happy if finally finally you can make it ....

Goody- don’t be so moody ... goody and moody rhymes but I don’t think its good...hehehe...take care of yourself

Larry - take care and good luck

Park - remember when we had the talk at the bat cave...I was right after all when I said I might not be able to say goodbye ... thanks for teaching me everything I know about being an ops...

To My Passport Family Ms Yvette - thanks for being a wonderful superior...im just sad that we only lasted for a few months

Camille - thank you for allowing me to be your friend...we hope to see you here at kpointe

Badz and knought...ill be very very sad if ever the 2 of you would leave Sykes but im trying to be optimistic

Dianne - thank you for being a nice friend. i know we have our differences but you were willing to accept me flaws and all

Tops - rabs...we miss you (mayen, lori and me)...take care of yourself..dont make me say the magic word..hehhehe

Norie - i wish that cupid is listening and would grant my wish that he would deliver your other half, the one perfectly made for you...thanks for being my friend...

To MSN Friends
Jocy - keep me posted regarding our next game plan to work abroad...hehhehe

Gina - same as my wish to norie ...i wish that you can find your other half too, the one that would make you happy...cause your such a nice person with such a nice heart

Norman, Kaser, Manel, Kristy, syumut, aimee and kagandahan (jean) - thanks for the funny memories...at one point in time you guys are my driving force to wake up in the morning and still go to work
Direk - thank you for all the sessions we had...i hope we can have it again...just keep in touch ok

To the people i failed to mention - its not that you are not important to me..its just that my back is hurting again..and you know me and my short term memory loss ... thanks for everything ...you made my stay in MSN memorable

I’m not comfortable putting my thoughts in writing, but today im making an exception. Last January 1, 2005, we all mourn the lost of a friend and to us who were there to witness it all, life will never be the same again. I have never felt that much emotion’s (fear, disappointment and anger) all in one day.

How do they expect you to react? I don’t think anybody can feel, think and act normal after witnessing that kind of scene. I didn’t even remember my cell phone number or pray the “our father” and yet they expect me to remember company rules. I was disappointed because the people who I thought would help me make them understand that like “him” I am a victim too, allow this to happen to me. Yes, they empathize with you, but then again they don’t know exactly how you feel because they’re not the ones having nightmares, there not the one who jumps whenever there’s a loud bang and there not the ones who sees her whole career collapse before her.

To Anyong, I will never forget that you walked me to Glorietta. You don’t know how much that means to me. Looking back, I don’t know if you noticed but I was really in the edge of breaking down (kung hindi lang nakaka hiyang umiyak sa crowd). To Joanne, Goody and Larry thank you guys for fighting my battle. I will always be grateful that I am part of the Ops team. You are my main motivation to still come to work although I know the effort you exert to put up with me especially after they asked me to sign the letter. To Don Henrico and Jay, thank you for the advice but I was given no choice, but thanks anyway. To the people who helped me pick up the pieces thanks, you did more help than the talk with the psychiatrist…hehheheh…

Now I am ready to move on…

***The song im singing right now!***

JENNIFER LOPEZ (f/ Fat Joe)

Hold You Down

[Verse 1][Jennifer:]

Now you've been holding me down

For such a long time now

From back then

To now in my story

Straight from the hood

You've always been there for me

And ya had my back

(When they) Back when everybody saidI wasn't anything

It was you who had me holdin' on

No matter what was goin' on

So no whatever ya need I got you

[Fat Joe:]

Reminiscing that 6 train from way back

Now its sky blue phantoms and stretch may backs

Sweepin' them floors in them Bronx apartments

Mira esta que on that red carpet

With Pun died you was the first to call me

I never told you but you was there for me

Whatever you need,

I'll be there for youCrack -

I got ya back for real (True story)

[Bridge][Jennifer:]

Now my loyalty, will always be

With you, if you just promise me

That you'll stay real just like you are

'Cause baby you don't have to change (no)

[Chorus][Jennifer:]

You don't know how much you mean to me

Whenever you down

You know that you can lean on me

No matter the situationBoy, I'm gon' hold you down

[Fat Joe:]

You don't know how much you mean to me

Whenever you down

You know that you can lean on me

No matter the situationGirl, I'm gon' hold you down

[Verse 2][Fat Joe:]

2005 Rakim and Jody Watley

Why'd she paint such a picture so perfect Quite possibly

The real expression from BXTo South Beach

I'ma always hold you down, girl

You can count on me

[Jennifer:]

So remember this whenever I call

We go back too farWe've been through it all

Even though we haven't spoke

In so longAin't nothing has changed

Not a damn thing, baby

[Bridge][Jennifer:]

Now my loyalty, will always be

With you, if you just promise me

That you'll stay real just like you are'

Cause baby you don't have to change because

[Chorus][Jennifer:]

You don't know how much you mean to me

Whenever you downYou know that you can lean on me

No matter the situation

Boy, I'm gon' hold you down

[Fat Joe:]

You don't know how much you mean to me

Whenever you down

You know that you can lean on me

No matter the situation

Girl, I'm gon' hold you down

[Verse 3][Fat Joe:]

Like green, it's the autumns

Things will stay

This industry, yeah, I foughtMade me this way

Get between me and J.Lo

I simply stayYou better off sweepin' leaves

On a windy day (no)

[Jennifer:]

So I don't care about the situation

I'ma ride for you if there's a complication

Every time you had my back and all

When we were young

Now you Joe, we crackin' off

[Bridge][Jennifer:]

Now my loyalty, will always be

With you, if you just promise me

That you'll stay real just like you are'

Cause baby you don't have to change because

[Chorus][Jennifer:]

You don't know how much you mean to me

Whenever you down

You know that you can lean on me

No matter the situation

Boy, I'm gon' hold you down

[Fat Joe:]

You don't know how much you mean to me

Whenever you downYou know that you can lean on me

No matter the situationGirl, I'm gon' hold you down

[Jennifer and Fat Joe:]

You don't know how much you mean to me

Whenever you downYou know that you can lean on me

No matter the situationI'm gon' hold you down